THIS TIMES 1,000!! It really bugs me when I see posts from women saying that being an Army Wife/Girlfriend is the toughest job in the military… In my opinion that’s just being disrespectful to the men and women who put their lives on the line for our country. ♥
Today I had a girl that I’ve only known a short amount of time say something to me that actually took a few hours to set in and bother me.
She said “…you seem like you’ve accepted that you’re going to be miserable..”
And holy shit, she’s right.
I have completely accepted that this place sucks and for 9 months I am going to be absolutely alone and miserable. I will coop myself up in my house and do literally nothing all day and insist that it’s okay.
It’s not okay! I’ve been doing this for years because of this deep set anxiety I have. My mom was ALWAYS in her room, never wanted to go out or meet friends and I now consider this normal..it’s not. I’m 21, I should want to go out and meet people, have fun, laugh, enjoy the outside world.
I should be going to the gym and keeping myself fit, I should be striving towards living a life I can be proud of. Don’t get me wrong, I am SO proud of the life I have with my husband but I shouldn’t accept that I’m going to be sad and alone.
Even if I have to go out by myself, it’s better than staying in alone.
So tomorrow marks day 1 of striving for a better me, a better understanding of me, a step forward in the direction of a much healthier lifestyle.
p.s. I really miss my husband
Nothing, Nada, No-one…
Can prepare an Army Wife for deployment.
I dropped my hubby off at the company today with a knot in my stomach knowing that they could be locked down and leave any day.
This, my friend, is pure torture. I am so proud of him but damn it, it needs to be over with already and it hasn’t even truly begun yet.
I know I can survive and I’ll be fine on my own, it’s not a matter of being dependent on him like a lot of wives are. No offence. It’s a matter of comfort.
Just being able to touch his foot with mine under the covers at night.
The manly smell of the bathroom after he’s showered.
Telling him to clean up all the crap he leaves on his nightstand.
Watching our puppy wait for him by the door to hug him after work everyday.
I’m gonna miss the little things that always make me smile.
I’ve decided that there is no way I am sitting here while Donnie’s deployed. I will die of lack of human contact and experience.
So instead me and my new friend are gonna road trip to my hometown in Florida and make the most of our time.
Here I come America!
I have let myself think about this upcoming deployment WAY too much!
Luckily today I met up with another wife from the same company and she seems really down to earth which is a huge improvement from all of the other wives. I might even have myself a road trip buddy for the trek home! Yay!
It feels so good to click with someone in the 6 months that I’ve been here!
I started watching Married To The Army:Alaska and I am internally confused whether or not I like it.
First there’s the typical I wear my husbands rank girl, who’s name I don’t even care to remember. She is a stuck up bitch! Who is she to judge another girl over where she met her husband? Was she not fat at one point? And instead of exercising and being healthy she just paid someone to stick a hose in her and suck it out.
And secondly, it makes me TOO DAMN EMOTIONAL!
My hubby is deploying soon and all this crying on the show makes me wanna go out, buy a gallon of ice cream and a GIANT bottle of wine.
37 days left. :(
BOO!
I’m not the best blogger/social networker as I’ve mentioned before; But lately it seems since I’ve been in Texas that I’ve virtually lost myself in problems, stress and pure self-isolation.
Today I woke up (for the second time) to go to physical therapy and normally I drag myself out of bed because let’s face the facts: I am not a morning person and when the only thing you have to look forward to on a daily basis is someone physically torturing you, getting out of that bed of warmth and comfort is not the highlight of your day. Today was different, I woke up with a fire burning in my stomach, not illness, but a need to get my butt into gear and get back to looking forward to each day.
So I started Stumbling again! For those of you even less socially conscious than I, go to Stumbleupon.com and you won’t be disappointed. It’s a site that gives a wide variety of interests to choose from, you click on the things you’d like to see and then hit stumble! It’s that easy! So here’s something I found to bump up my creative spirit!:
33 Ways To Stay Creative:
“Anyone can give up,
